4th January 2007!

God it's been absolutely ages since I've written anything here. I thought seeing as I'm sitting in England wasting time before I fly home today that I'd update a little bit. I've been home for 2 weeks seeing in Christmas and the New Year with family. I got to see Rob twice which was really lovely but the thing is I've settled straight back into normal. I feel like it's the uni holidays and I've got nowhere else to be. I've completely forgotten this life I've begun in Gran Canaria. I can't be bothered to learn spanish, I can't be bothered to study. I've got a mid-year report due in at the start of February and I don't know where to start with it. I have no impetus to work. I can't imagine going back to my flat and starting back at school. I know I've been in Gran Canaria for the past 3 months but it feels like a dream. It feels like it's over and now I can be Carolyn again. I think that's what I've just got used to over Christmas - being me. Now it all has to change again.

This sounds ridiculous! lol. I'll be back in the swing of things in no time and I'll think I was high when I wrote this...but I honestly am getting tired of to-ing and fro-ing. It'll be nice when this and uni is over and I can just be Carolyn...starting out her own life not filling time like this.

Love you Rob. x